We met in a classroom full of people who didn’t want to be there. We became friends over a conversation about basketball and eating cereal. We bonded over Pretty Little Liars, and then this day all of a sudden came…
I never knew what it would feel like to watch someone you care for so much get married. I guess thats what is going to happen this weekend. I’m scared, horrified, my insides are crawling just thinking about the fact that you’re giving your all to another woman that I’m not even sure you can stay faithful to…
I don’t know what to do, I don’t know what to say. All I can think about is how much it is going to kill me to see your smile when she walks out in that white dress. I keep thinking that maybe you’ll change your mind, but we all know that isn’t going to happen. You have a point to prove, and not only to your family and friends, but to yourself.
Thats the thing about you that I’ve noticed more than anyone else. You don’t need to prove anything to anyone but yourself anymore. YOU have to talk yourself into things and out of things because YOU have to make YOU believe it. Everyone else is just following behind, trying to make sure you don’t screw it up but almost sure that you will.
You became my best friend out of no where. You pushed me when you saw the potential I didn’t know I had. You yelled at me when I was being naive and stupid. You hugged me and loved me when I needed someone to pick me up. I did the same for you.
But now, you’re going to watch her walk down the aisle of my dreams, with me watching from a seat on the crowd,
You’re getting married, but I can promise we’ll both be crying. Though yours will be tears of joy, mine will be because I miss you. I miss you all the time, I miss you when you’re standing right in front of me. Because YOU are not the YOU I once knew.
Marriage? Good luck with that.